Poetry

By Anna Carolina Fagundes

Four Stanzas

I

He’s a man, not so much of a man
But I look at him and I see oceans and dreams
Great plans and scenes
All reflected into those clear blue eyes of his.

He’s in a way like me
First to be, last to become
The flesh and the blood of a spinning world
That never ceases to twirl.

Still himself after all these years – a gift
That only comes with time
To get back his soul where so many lost their minds.

He’s a man, not so much of a man
But when I look at him I see myself
And all that I still can be, become and believe
All reflected into those clear blue eyes of his.

-*-*-*-

II

Why do you scare me so –
Even after all these years?
Why do you haunt my mind 
With those strange melodies?

When you talk of your pain
It’s like you speak about
The way I used to be – 
And that startles me to death.

In a way it’s strange, 
digging your wounds as if you liked to be hurt 
In a way are we not like you
Wanting so much someone to ease our burdens?

In the end, only you remain
Alive but by a thread of memory
Higher than the rest – 
Not perfect, not blessed or corrected,
Just yourself, that’s more than enough for me.

-*-*-*-*

III

I bow before you and there’s so much to say
If I ever had the chance to tell you
All the words that cross my mind 

In my dreams, there’s where you still reside
And even though it’s only for a moment
I hold on to every breath, every night.

For a moment, I wonder – 
Why do you move me so?
What’s on you that keeps me alive?

A dark horse, a deep soul
Where no answers are left to be known
Shy and distant, your music still lulls me on.

-*-*-*-

IV

Is it a joke, your existence?
So many songs and just one man!
A heart on the sleeve and eyes on the road
A strange knight, Mother Nature’s son

There could be only one like you
Yet so sound like you are one too many
Music, movies, children and all that jazz – 
Pretty blunt, you seem to be everywhere!

And yet...


Yet every time I hear you I bend down
The memories coming to my ears
The visions cross my eyes – 
All the dreams I had come before me
Like they had never left me at all.

And then I forgive you. Again.

-*-*-*-

Envoi

All that there is and all that will be – 
I bow before the melody in your eyes
Forever be blessed, whatever God is,
For the joy you brought into our lives.

Copyright 2003, Anna Carolina Fagundes

About the Author

Anna Carolina Fagundes was born in São Paulo, Brazil in January 1981,
and has been writing Beatles-related fiction since 1997. Nowadays she's a journalist in her home country, planning to get a Masters Degree in Journalism abroad (probably England). She is also a songwriter, and is part of a rock duo called The Liverpool Affair with her fiance.

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