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It was a normal work
night for Destiny until one of the customers began to heckle the on stage
talent. Destiny looked into the crowd; she could see who was making the
trouble; it was John Lennon. She smiled; his comments were cruel, but he was
so funny! She had to cover her mouth to keep from laughing out loud. The bouncer walked
over and hauled John out of his seat. He dragged the ex-Beatle through the
crowd and threw him out into the street. On an impulse, Destiny took off her
apron and slipped out the side exit. She went around to the front and saw
Lennon sitting on the curb looking angry and dejected, smoking a cigarette.
She went and sat down beside him. "You were
funnier than they were," she said, referring to the Smothers Brothers. John snorted
derisively. "Yeah, well, that's not sayin' much,is it?" he
remarked, 'Mom always liked you best'. What the fuck is that? Jesus,
what a load of crap!" He flipped his cigarette ash into the gutter and
turned to look at Destiny. She blushed under his frank scrutiny, and he
grinned. "So, what's
yer name?" he asked conversationally. "Destiny,"
she replied. "Destiny Kirkpatrick." "Well,
Destiny Destiny Kirkpatrick," he said with a smile, "I'm
John." "I
know," she told him. "Fancy a
drink?" he asked, getting to his feet and offering her a hand up. She hesitated; she
could get fired for leaving. She decided he was worth it and took his hand. "Sure, let's
go," she agreed. They
walked a short distance down the street to another club, and John led her
through the crowd to an isolated corner where it was relatively quiet. She
slid into the booth and he sat beside her. "So,"
said Destiny, once their drinks had arrived, "What's going on in the
life of John Lennon these days?" He looked up at
the ceiling as though he might find the answer written there. He sighed and
took a deep drag off his cigarette. "Oh, I'm
workin'," he replied, "But mostly I'm just doin' me time. I just
want to go home." Destiny looked at
him with curiosity. "To England, you mean?" she asked, stirring
her drink. "Nah, to New
York," he answered, lighting another cigarette off the last one.
"To Yoko. To me life." He explained that
his wife had asked him to leave home, directing him to take their personal
assistant with him. He had done so and was currently living in Los Angeles
with her in a house owned by a friend of his. The assistant, whose name was
May, was now his mistress and she had fallen deeply in love with him. "And I don't
treat her right," he said sadly. "She's good and sweet and, well,
hell-- she fuckin' loves me. She deserves so much better than I give
her. I feel like such a bastard sometimes." He finished his drink and
looked about for a waitress to call for a refill. He caught the eye of one
and waved her over. When she went to get his drink, he continued to speak. " But I can't
help my feelings any more than she can help hers," he added. "I
just love Yoko so much. All I wanna do is go home." His drink arrived
and he tossed it back with a practiced air. He stood and offered his hand
once more. Destiny took it without hesitation and followed him as he
threaded his way back through the crowd, swaying ever so slightly on his
feet. Once they were
outside, John took a deep breath and seemed to revive a bit. "So then,
girl, where to now? Where d'ye live?" he asked, getting out another
cigarette. Destiny hesitated
for a heartbeat, then told him, and he waved down a taxi and pushed her in,
sliding in beside her. He gave her address to the driver and took her into
his arms without a word, kissing her deeply. She did not resist, but melted
instead against him, pressing her breast more firmly into his hand. The
other hand was on her thigh, up under her short skirt. He slid his hand
higher, and she stiffened, refusing to allow him to get his hand between her
legs. "No,"
she whispered, "Not here. The driver-- wait till we get there." He withdrew the
offending hand and allowed it instead to rest upon her knee, but continued
kissing her. Once they reached
Destiny's apartment, she opened the door and he followed her up the narrow
stairs. She unlocked the second door and led him inside. He closed and
locked the door, then seized her again and steered her to the couch,
stretching out full length upon her. He was moving against her insistently,
and she did not fight him. She reached up and started unbuttoning his shirt.
He shrugged it off and yanked his jeans off as well. Destiny slipped out of
her clothes and let them fall heedlessly to the floor, and she welcomed him
without reservation. *** At some point the
pair moved to the bedroom and by the time it was becoming light outside,
they were asleep, wrapped together tightly. When Destiny woke,
she looked up into his face. He was sleeping deeply, snoring softly. His
mouth was relaxed and his eyelids fluttered with a dream. His hair was
tousled and he needed a shave. Destiny glanced at the clock; it was well
past noon. She hoped that John did not have anywhere he had to be. She
thought of waking him, but decided to allow him to sleep as long as he cared
to. She settled back down beside him, and his arm went around her at once.
He stirred, then settled once more. She lay against him, considering what
had happened. She thought of the things he'd told her, some of which had
been of such a personal nature that she was almost embarrassed to know them.
She thought of the girl, May, with whom the man beside her lived. What was
she going through? Was she worried that he might not return? She was
thinking of this when John stirred again and opened his eyes sleepily. "Mmph,"
he said, groping on the table beside the bed for his glasses. He located
them and put them on, peering at the clock and reaching for a cigarette.
Destiny smiled at him; he looked so cute to her, all tousled and sleepy. "Good
morning," she said, kissing his cheek. "Umph,"
he replied, taking a deep drag on his cigarette. He shook his head as if to
clear it, then said, "Mornin'." "Are you
hungry?" asked Destiny.She stood up and stretched, then when he did not
answer, she turned to look at him. He was leering at her suggestively. "Well, not
for food, but yeah, I could go for somethin'," he remarked. Laughing, she
rejoined him, and they had breakfast much later. *** Later that
afternoon, after John had gone, Destiny thought that it was too bad she
would not be able to spend more time with him and get to know him better. He
was a fascinating man and so sexy, she had to add. Handsome, funny,
intelligent, personable-- he had it all. She hugged the pillow he'd used for
a moment, then tossed it back onto the bed with a sigh. Dammit, she
thought, why are all the good ones always taken? *** Four days passed,
and Destiny went on as before, but she could not deny that she missed John
Lennon far more than she would have thought possible. She'd spent no more
than sixteen hours with him, and that was a generous estimate. Still, she
felt as though she'd lost something important.
More than once she found herself blinking back tears. By the time the
fourth day came, she had decided that the best thing she could possibly do
was to simply forget him; if she did not, she was quite sure to drive
herself completely insane. Destiny was
sitting alone in her kitchen having a cup of coffee when there was a sudden,
loud, almost hysterical knock on her door. Her heart in her
throat, she ran to the door. She heard loud panting coming from the other
side. Then another knock; she
almost fell over from shock. "W-who is
it?" she called, her heart pounding furiously. "It's me--
John! Open up, girl, willya?" Opening the door
quickly, she admitted him. He nearly fell into the room. He was clutching
his side and his face was dead white. Destiny helped him to the sofa and he
lay down heavily, breathing like a freight train. Destiny was horrified to
see blood on the front of his shirt. "Oh!"
she exclaimed, "You're bleeding--" He looked as
worried as she at that, and he looked down at his shirt, but then he
grinned. "Ah, no--
that'd be the other fella's nose did that," he said with a shake of his
head. "He did get a lucky punch in to me ribs, but I was able to
protect me pretty face. He wasn't so lucky, though. You should see his--
he looks like he's wearin' a Halloween mask!" He laughed, but stopped
short and clutched his side again, wincing. "For crying
out loud, John. What was the whole thing about?" "He called me
a faggot," said John simply. "What? Who
cares? What if he'd had a knife-- or a gun?" "I didn't
think o' that," he said, still holding his injured ribs. Destiny moved
his hands aside and pressed the sore spot gently. "Nothing
broken," she commented, "But you're going to have quite a bruise,
I'll bet." "Are y'sure
about that? Sure feels broken to me," he complained. "Hurts
like bleedin' hell." "Yes, I'm
sure. Two years in nursing school," she replied. "You can be sure;
nothing is broken-- thank God." He leaned his head
back and closed his eyes wearily. "I'll be
right back," said Destiny. She went to the kitchen to get him a drink.
She filled a glass halfway with water, hesitated, then went to the cupboard
and got out a bottle of bourbon and filled the glass the rest of the way
with that. "Here, drink
this," she said, kneeling beside him again. He started to push
her hand away, then caught the smell of alcohol and changed his mind. He
drank it all and said, "Next time, leave out the fuckin' water."
He smiled weakly and she tousled his hair gently. "Yeah, you'll
be fine," she said. "Why did you come here, though? Why not
the hospital?" "Didn't wanna
deal with the publicity," he replied. "There wasn't anyone else
around, so now if the other guy tells anyone it was me who messed up his
face, it'll be his word against mine. No record of it, see?" "But why here?"
she asked again. "Why me?" He smiled at her,
and to Destiny it felt like warm sunshine. "Because I
like you," he replied. "And I don't know why, but I trust
you. I just know you'll keep quiet about it. I remembered your address from
the other night and so when I got a cab, I asked 'em to bring me here." "Well, lucky
for you I've had nurses' training," replied Destiny crisply, "Or
else I would have had to call the hospital.
Broken ribs are nothing to fool around with. You could get a ruptured
spleen, or--" she stopped; he was laughing at her quietly. "Ah, but
girl," he said softly, "Without the nurses' trainin' you wouldn't know
that, now, wouldja?" "You have an
answer for everything, don't you, Lennon," she muttered, but she had to
smile. "Think you can make it to the bedroom?" He almost fell off
the couch, laughing with glee, holding his side gingerly. "Ooooh,
girl-- yer a naughty one! I hardly think I'm in any shape for a shaggin'
just now," he said in a delighted voice. Destiny shook her
head, smiling again. "No, you fool-- I just thought you'd be more
comfortable in the bed. Although," she added, looking thoughtfully at
him, "I could just lay you down without all that constrictive
clothing and just do all the work myself..." "You
know," replied John, "I think the bed might be more comfortable.
And me clothes are a bit constrictin'." She helped him
into the bedroom and undressed him tenderly. "There you
go," she said, smoothing his hair back. "Think I
could get another drink?" he asked hopefully. She nodded and
went to get it. "Remember,
this time leave out all that fuckin' water," he called after her. When she returned,
he rose on his elbow and reached for the glass. She gave him some pills and
he put them into his mouth and washed them down with the bourbon. "What was
that you gave me?" he asked. "You're
asking now? Why not before you took them?" He shrugged.
"Fat nun squeezin' into a tight uniform," he remarked. Destiny looked at
him, puzzled. "What?" she asked. He grinned.
"Force of habit," he explained. "See a pill, swallow it. Then
ask what it's gonna do to me." "Well, I
won't ask you how many times that may have gotten you into
trouble," replied Destiny. "But it was a narcotic pain
reliever--you know; Demerol." "Cool,"
he said. Then he gave her another grin. "Now, about you doin' all the
work-- just what'dye mean by that?" Shaking her head
with a smile, she bent to take him into her mouth, and he sighed happily and
leaned back into the pillows, closing his eyes. *** Days passed, then
a week. Destiny paced, at loose ends. She felt as though she just didn't
know what to do with herself. There was no sense in denying it. "I'm in love
with him," she said aloud. Her voice sounded so loud in the quiet room
that she was almost startled. There. It was out. She'd admitted it. "I'm in
love," she repeated, "With another woman's husband." Another woman whom
that husband loved more than anything else on earth. Destiny had not seen or
heard from John in a week. For all she knew, he'd gone back to New York
already and she would never see him again. One thing was for
sure; if he ever did come back, she could never let him know how deep
and strong her feelings for him had become. It would only make him feel
badly and further muddle his already too complicated life. "Oh, well,
there's nothing I can do but wait," she muttered. She looked at the
clock and sighed; two a.m. Might as well go to bed, she supposed. She had just
settled herself for the night when there came a soft knock on the door, then
a little louder one. "John!"
she exclaimed, running for the door. She paused and called, "Who is
it?" "A
rapist," replied John's voice. She opened the
door at once, and he stepped in, a look of mock horror on his face. "What! D'ye
open the door for rapists, then?" he cried. She closed the
door behind him and smiled at him. "Only the cute ones," she
replied, "After all, I do have some scruples." John took her into
his arms and kissed her hard. "Scruples are very overrated, y'know,"
he remarked. "Got any more o' that bourbon?" Much later, after
they'd fallen asleep, Destiny woke and she was alone in the bed. She heard
him in the bathroom and relaxed. She watched him come back into the room and
instead of getting back into bed, he collected his cigarettes and matches
from the table and sat in a chair by the window. Silently, Destiny
watched him. The match flared, lighting his handsome face, but his
expression, as so often was the case, was unreadable. He took a deep drag
and expelled the smoke towards the ceiling, then looked out the window at
the street below. Golden light filtered up from the street light below and
illuminated his features; he sighed and Destiny said in a soft voice,
"Hey, Johnny." He turned his face
towards her. "Ah, you're awake," he said. "Good; I've
somethin' I wanna ask ." That sounded
slightly ominous to Destiny, but she made her voice light. "What's
that?" "I feel
really bad about the way I'm hurtin' May," he said quietly. "I
know," replied Destiny, "You told me." "Yeah, well,
I don't wanna add you to the list of victims," he said, his tone
flat and slightly bitter. "I just don't wanna hurt yet another girl
who's been nothin' but kind and good to me." She got up and
crossed the room, settling into his lap. She put her head on his shoulder,
and he put his arms around her protectively. She could feel the pulse in his
throat. "Don't worry
about me," she said softly. "I know how everything is. You've been
completely honest, and I don't expect you to fall in love with me. It's too
late for that; you're already in love. Don't worry," she said again.
"I'm okay with being your friend." She felt a little guilty saying
this, but she figured that as long as she didn't say 'just your
friend,' it wasn't really quite a lie. "Okay,
then," said John, sounding relieved, "You've got the job. Friends
it is." Destiny lifted her
head and looked into his face. "But can we
still..." He grinned and
replied, " But of course," and carried her back to bed. *** The next morning,
Destiny got up and went to the window.
The shade was only half up, and she opened it the rest of the way to
let the sun come streaming into the room. "FUCKIN'
HELL!" cried John, from the bed, "SHUT THE BLOODY SHADE-- TOO MUCH
LIGHT!" She closed it
completely and came back to the bed. "Sorry,"
she told him. "Hurts my
fuckin' eyes," he said moodily. "How the hell can you be so
bleedin' cheerful at such an obscene hour?" he continued, feeling for
his glasses. He put them on and took a cigarette, lit it, and lay back down.
He looked cranky and tousled, and Destiny had to giggle. "What?"
he said, looking offended. "You just
look cute," she replied. "Hmmph,"
he said, blowing smoke in her direction. She waved it away and went on to
tell him that morning was the best part of the day. "It's the
fuckin' days' bleedin' asshole," growled John. She bent to kiss
his cheek, and he allowed the caress, then added that he "fuckin' hated
mornings". "Oh, but baby,"
whispered Destiny in his ear, "mornings can be so much fun! Tell you
what. Take a shower with me." He grudgingly
agreed that this particular morning could be worse. *** Days would pass,
then suddenly he would appear at odd hours. Destiny made sure to be home
every evening just in case of a visit. Once it was over a week, and she was
sure he'd gone back to New York. When the knock
came, she flew to the door and threw it open. He stepped in and she hurled
herself into his arms. "Whoa, girl,
what is it? Has somethin' fuckin' happened?" he cried in an alarmed
voice. He stroked her hair, murmuring into it, "Ssshhh, hush, it's all
right, calm down and tell me what this is all about." She stopped
sobbing long enough to stammer, "I--I th-thought y-you were never
coming back--" He drew his head
back to look at her. His eyes were full of concern and alarm. "Say, you're
not goin' soft on me, are ya?" he asked in a worried voice,
"Because I don't know if I can handle another--" "No,"
she said quickly. She shook her head vehemently and forced herself to smile
up at him. "It's okay; I'm okay. Honest. It's just that--"
she paused, trying to think of a reasonable excuse for her unreasonable
behavior. "--I'm almost due for my period," she said, looking down
to avoid his light brown eyes with their clear intensity. "Ah, the
lady's days," he said, accepting her explanation. "You had me
scared there, for a minute." "Sorry,"
she told him, hugging his neck. He kissed the top of her head and assured
her that there had been no harm done. "Say,"
he added, "You did say almost due, didn'tcha?" She nodded and he
began to kiss her, and everything began to be all right again. Late that night,
she woke to the sound of him crying. He was trembling and his sobs shook his
shoulders. "Baby,"
she cried, pulling him close, "What is it? Tell me." She held him,
and he clung to her, crying like his heart was breaking. She rocked him
gently, as though he were a child who needed comforting. "Tell me,
John," she said again, after what seemed like a very long time. He
seemed to be cried out for the time being, and he looked up at her, seeming
very young and very miserable. "I just wanna
go home," he said at last in a very small voice.
His eyes filled again and he dashed the tears away with the back of
his hand and said "Fuck," angrily. "Sorry," he added,
"I don't mean to bring you down. It's
just that I love her so much--sometimes I wish I didn't, but there it
is." "It's okay
for you to miss her, John," whispered Destiny, "This will all be
over, probably soon. After all, she's got to be missing you, too." He nodded and
closed his eyes, sighing heavily. Then he got up and went to the bathroom.
Destiny watched him through the open door; he splashed water on his face,
dried it, and came back, settling next to her again. He lit a cigarette and
smoked in silence for a moment. "Tell me
about her," said Destiny suddenly. John looked at
her; he seemed surprised. "What, you mean Yoko?" he asked, taking
another drag off his cigarette. "Yes. How did
you meet her? Was it love at first sight?" He laughed
abruptly. "It was more like subjugation at first sight,
actually," he said. "You haven't already heard this story?" "No,"
she admitted. "After the Beatles broke up, I didn't really hear that
much about what you guys were up to. I saw your bed-in things in the papers,
you know, and like that, but nothing personal. I knew you got married, and
Paul too, and I heard about your moving to New York, but I didn't even know
you were in California until I saw you at the club one time." "You saw me
before the night we met?" "Yes, but I
was working, and I didn't want to bother you, you know?" "Hmmm. Well,
I met her at least a year before we finally hooked up; after I first met
her, I saw her a few other times too, but we were never alone together until
May of 1968." He leaned over to
get another cigarette, lit it, then settled back. Destiny settled herself
against his shoulder, watching his face.
He circled her with his arm and kissed her hair. "I was alone
that day," he said, his eyes clouding a bit at the memory. "I
fuckin' hate bein' alone. Can't fuckin' stand it; never could. I'd
been to this party at a friends' house the night before, but I was feelin' a
bit sick, so I left alone and went straight home to bed. The next day I woke
up alone and I was fuckin' bored. The wife and kid were away and the house
was so quiet. Noise from the
stereo or the telly didn't help, I wanted some company. I saw an ad about
this art gallery in London, it was called the Indica Gallery; it was the
same place where I'd met Yoko the year before at her exhibition." He
blew smoke at the ceiling and thought for a moment. "She'd sent
me this book," he continued, "Kinda weird, but kinda cool. I found
it in the drawer by the bed and gave her a call.
She agreed to come over; I was nervous and I didn't really know why.
I felt like I had to impress her." "The fact
that you were a Beatle wasn't impressive enough?" asked Destiny.
"I would think that would do it." "Yeah, well,
you'd think so, but you'd be wrong. She said she hadn't realized that when
we first met." Destiny found this
hard to believe, and when she said so, John shrugged and said, "Well,
that's what she said, and she didn't seem all that impressed after she found
that out. Anyhow, once she got there, I was kinda lost. It was like, okay,
now she's here, what the fuck do I do now? I decided to play her some
experimental tapes I'd been workin' on in my off time.
She seemed impressed by that, and then she suggested that we make a
tape of our own, together. So we did, and that was the Two Virgins
album. After that, we went
to bed and made love, and that was the first time. It was the next morning
by then, and as soon as it happened, I knew she was the one I was destined
for. It was like magic, and I just wanted to be with her all the time after
that. It's that simple; she completes me. She's like--" he
paused, and for a moment Destiny thought he would cry again. "--she's
like me other half," he said at last. "My fuckin' soulmate. Jesus,
girl, I just love her so much." He crushed out his
cigarette and took Destiny into his arms. He kissed her insistently and she
pressed herself hard against him. He rolled onto her and her mind cried, oh
baby, how I wish you could love me that way, because that's just the
way I love you! Then she stopped thinking altogether because he was
pushing into her, seeking to enter her and forget his pain for a while. *** When Destiny heard
John running up the stairs a week later, the last thought on her mind was
that this might be their last time together. Her heart turned over and she
opened the door, smiling broadly. "Des! Guess
what? Oh, you'll never guess-- I'm just gonna tell you-- it's over, it's all
over! I'm goin' home, I'm goin' fuckin' home!" Destiny's blood
seemed to freeze in her veins. His exile was over; he would be returning to
New York, to his life, to the woman he loved. She made her mouth smile. "John, that's
wonderful. I'm so happy for you," she told him, trying hard to really
mean it. But she wasn't so selfless; she wished that he was going to stay
here, near her. He grabbed her up and swung her around in an exuberant
circle. When he released her, he was breathing heavily and his sweet brown
eyes were shining with happiness. "When will
you leave?" she asked, afraid of his answer. "Today! In a
few hours! I wanted to come tell you, see you first. And to give you
this," he said, handing her a slip of paper. "It's my phone number
in New York," he explained. "I want you to call me if you ever
need anything." He kissed her gently and she put the scrap of paper
into the pocket of her jeans. Blinking back her tears, she buried her face
in his shoulder. "I'll miss
you," she said softly, "So much." "You've been
great, Des," he told her quietly, "I don't know how I would've
made it through all of this without you. I mean it-- call me if you need
anything. You've been a good friend to me, and I won't forget." "You said you
didn't have to go for a few hours," she said, hugging him tight.
"Can you stay a while?" "Yeah, for an
hour or so," he said, "But I have another place I've gotta go
before I go to the airport. Just let me tell the taxi to come back in an
hour. Be right back." Destiny held him
as tightly as she dared, loving him fiercely. When he left here, that would
be the end. The hour fairly
flew by, and all too soon the taxi was back, honking out in front of the
building. The last time
Destiny saw John, he was sitting in the car, waving happily as it pulled
away from the curb and rolled down the boulevard. *** A few days later,
Destiny saw John and Yoko on some TV news show. He looked happy and at peace
with himself. He held his wife's hand tightly and kept looking at her with
love shining in his eyes. She
cried for a long time, selfishly wishing that he were still here. She went
to bed early and slept dreamlessly for once. The next morning,
she was sick as soon as she got up. The same thing
happened the next day. And the next. A quick trip to
the doctor and a urine test told Destiny that she was expecting a
child--John's child. It could be no one else's. There had been only him for
several months. She often took the
scrap of paper with the phone number on it and looked at it thoughtfully.
Sometimes she even picked up the phone, but then she would stop,
remembering his desperate grief, the heart wrenching sobs shaking him as he
cried for the woman he loved. She put the phone down every time, knowing that she could not
destroy his fragile happiness. She knew he had returned to the place, the
life, and the woman he belonged to. She would just have to do what she felt
to be right. What more could anybody do? When the time came
for her baby to be born, Destiny went to the hospital alone. She had a boy
and agreed to sign adoption papers, for the social worker who visited her
said that it would be selfish for Destiny to keep her child. "The best and
most loving thing you could do would be to let him grow up in a real home
with both a mother and a father," said the woman, and Destiny signed
the papers, kissed her son goodbye, and moved back to her home in Vermont. *** Sixteen years
passed, and Destiny never met another man she could love the way she had
loved John. He had now been dead for nearly eleven years, and she still took
out her scrapbook from time to time and looked down at his face with
affection. One evening, there
was a soft knock at her door. Destiny put aside her needlework and went to
see who it could be; she was not expecting anyone. She opened the door and
caught her breath. The skinny kid who was standing there looked so much like
John that she nearly fainted. She sat heavily in the chair beside the door.
The boy looked alarmed. "Hey, are you
okay?" he asked, "I didn't mean to scare you. I just came to ask
you somethin'." "You don't
have to," she said, standing up shakily. "Yes, I'm your mother.
You look just like your father. For a moment I thought--" "Is he
here?" asked the kid, looking about as if he thought he might see her
husband sitting somewhere in the room. "Are you married to him?" "No, I never
was. He was married to someone else, I just fell in love with him
anyway." "Oh. Well, do
you know where he lives? I'd like to meet him too." Destiny looked
sadly at him and told him, "I'm sorry, baby, but your father has been
dead since you were around six." "Oh," he
said again. "Well, you're here, anyhow. Do you have any pictures of
him?" "Come on into
the kitchen and sit," she replied in a gentle voice, "I have
plenty of pictures of him." The kitchen was
large, clean and old fashioned looking. There was a rocking chair in one
corner with a handmade quilt in progress draped over its back. A large,
ginger colored cat lay sleeping on the chair, and its tail twitched in a
dream. The boy sat down at the table, and Destiny got a big book out of a
cabinet beside the stove and slid it across the table to him. He opened the
book to the first picture. "I think you
gave me the wrong book," he said, smiling at her, "Although it's
kind of funny, cuz people are always tellin' me I look just like--" he
stopped dead then, looking at the picture again, then at Destiny. She smiled
sadly and nodded her head. "That's
right; he was your father," she said quietly. "He never knew about
you, though, so don't blame him." The boy said
nothing but stared down at the picture of John in front of him. *** "Is it okay
if I smoke?" he asked, his voice shaking a bit. She nodded and went to
get him an ashtray. The boy-- her son,
Destiny reminded herself-- lit his cigarette with shaking hands and took a
deep drag. He reminded his mother even more of John as he did this. The
resemblance was unmistakable, the only difference the color of his eyes;
they were clear and blue. His long hair was tied back in a ponytail with a
piece of leather, and Destiny went to stand behind him. She loosened his
shoulder length hair and he shook his head, causing it to fall forward
around his handsome face. Destiny handed him a mirror and he looked at
himself, then at the picture of John with a similar hairstyle his mother
showed him. "Well, I'll
be damned," said her son, "I'll be fuckin' damned!" Destiny put her
arms around him and kissed the top of his head. "I have so
much to tell you," she said, drawing up a chair to sit beside her son.
"When I first met your father, he was sitting on the curb after getting
thrown out of the club I worked at for heckling the Smothers Brothers. I
told him he had been funnier than they had, and he said..." |
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Angel Godiva was
actually was given that nickname by John Lennon, whom she met in L.A. in
1974 on her 21st birthday. She had yards of hair back then.
She lives in Northern Connecticut
with her second husband, and has been a Beatles fan since 1964, when she
was 11. The high point of her life was meeting and getting to know
John (though she never saw him again after he returned to NYC).
She also writes poetry, and is
currently working with an editor friend on her first novel.
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